Inspired

This has been one very interesting week-- not so much with what we did but how we felt. who is inspired? How do we feel inspiration? And what do you do when others feel it and you don't? Or you just don't "get it". I am amazed with heavenly father's knowledge, of who I truly am-- my hopes, dreams, fears, frustration, my pride and my joy... he knows it all. I have a hard time really listening sometimes. oh i can be quiet for lengthy moments and listen and ponder and wait but I am starting to realize that it's through my frustrations and trials that the answers come... when all of a sudden a light turns on and I say "oh now I get it" . I had such an incredible experience tonight visiting teaching-- I was really struggling with my companion and then I changed my perspective, my thoughts and instead of having all these expectations I just decided to love her and have compassion and try to be her friend and when I did that something happened. I started to really see her! You can be in a room full of people and they are all busy and your busy and later all of a sudden you are talking with one of those people and you are just amazed in awe over them -- it happens with my kids ALL the time-- and you realize wow this person was in my presence this whole time but I never really saw them. I am coming to realize how much and how deeply H.F. knows me and others -- how the joys in my life are true blessings, and that my callings in life are inspired. It's ALL for my experience , growth and knowledge. I think I was too busy complaining that I wasn't able to see the beauty all around. I entered a photography contest this week with my son -- it was a lot of fun but I noticed that now part of a competition I wasn't enjoying the beauty around me but analyzing it, categorizing it etc etc -- it kind of sucked the joy out (It was the Tulip festival-- which is amazing! 55 acres of beauty!) Anyway-- the point is I learned so much this week and if I would just humble myself enough to really see people and listen I might be living in in completely different world than I thought. There truly is so much beauty all around....

San Diego

We just got back from beautiful San Diego, CA. We had a great trip! I think we pretty much crammed everything we could do in a few days as we could. Sure there are always more people to see and visit, memorable places to go etc etc but in the short time we had I think it went great! Went to LaJolla shores, the cove, Seal beach, Sea Port Village, went swimming, just kicked it with friends and fam, went to the mall, bought beautiful dresses, Ate at our favorite palces-- Estrada's twice! Islands, the greek place and pinnacle peak. Went to boomers, watched movies, took walks, talked and talked and talked, got my nails done, drove more than 30 hours in 5 days -- admired the countryside, admired the ocean, contemplated life, family, and the joy it all brings. We learned to appreciate all our blessings , the beauty of the earth-- and we espcially learned how great families are and how much energy there is in love! A great great great way to spend a few days off .....

Too fast

I have always been very excited to see the world, to be out there, to live, to enjoy, in a sense to go fast and faster-- however by going so fast (and enjoying it) I sometimes miss out on the present and then all of a sudden I blink and years have past me by. Today I took my baby's crib down. He has grown by leaps and bounds and like me he is very eager to grow up and experience it all. "Mr. adventure" I called him today as he tried to keep up with his brothers at a play structure in Carl's jr. It's designed for 3 and up but at a 1 1/2 years old he was determined. So, this afternoon, I took the crib down -- he already knew how to crawl and climb out of it and we would find him standing on the changing table. ..After I put him down for a nap, that to my surprise went very smoothly-- this deep sadness came over me. He is my last baby and today he very much proved he wasn't a baby anymore. I thought "this is it, it's over, did I miss it?!?!?" Did I cherish every moment like I planned, did I give him enough hugs, and bottles, did I give him enough time to just be a baby , to fall asleep on my lap, etc etc or did I push him to grow up too fast -- already- without even realizing it. He is excited for life alright and I love to see that excitement in his countenance -- but where did the time go.... too fast it just all happens too fast. So enjoy life but lets not rush through it! Your last baby is always hard so they say-- I think that's why i took a thousand pictures. the baby chapter is closing, it was definitely a good one and one I will always cherish so let's see what happens next. by the way do you remember when yuo were little and it seemed like the weekend was a lifetime away it seemed to take so long to get here, we'd have so many plans and now it seems like weeks, and months even years just fly by...how do we get it to stop or at least slow down?????

First times

In this modern day of technology I am doing what I never thought would be-- creating a "blog" or in other words publishing my journal on line for the whole world to see! This blog is dedicated to my family, to my 3 wonderful boys, my loving husband and myself-- So lets discover together the joys and amazement life can bring!

P.S. As my husband and I get older (and we are still just barely in our 30's) we realize that we are running out of "firsts" . Cheers to first times in life -- they are the moments we never forget!