Inspired

This has been one very interesting week-- not so much with what we did but how we felt. who is inspired? How do we feel inspiration? And what do you do when others feel it and you don't? Or you just don't "get it". I am amazed with heavenly father's knowledge, of who I truly am-- my hopes, dreams, fears, frustration, my pride and my joy... he knows it all. I have a hard time really listening sometimes. oh i can be quiet for lengthy moments and listen and ponder and wait but I am starting to realize that it's through my frustrations and trials that the answers come... when all of a sudden a light turns on and I say "oh now I get it" . I had such an incredible experience tonight visiting teaching-- I was really struggling with my companion and then I changed my perspective, my thoughts and instead of having all these expectations I just decided to love her and have compassion and try to be her friend and when I did that something happened. I started to really see her! You can be in a room full of people and they are all busy and your busy and later all of a sudden you are talking with one of those people and you are just amazed in awe over them -- it happens with my kids ALL the time-- and you realize wow this person was in my presence this whole time but I never really saw them. I am coming to realize how much and how deeply H.F. knows me and others -- how the joys in my life are true blessings, and that my callings in life are inspired. It's ALL for my experience , growth and knowledge. I think I was too busy complaining that I wasn't able to see the beauty all around. I entered a photography contest this week with my son -- it was a lot of fun but I noticed that now part of a competition I wasn't enjoying the beauty around me but analyzing it, categorizing it etc etc -- it kind of sucked the joy out (It was the Tulip festival-- which is amazing! 55 acres of beauty!) Anyway-- the point is I learned so much this week and if I would just humble myself enough to really see people and listen I might be living in in completely different world than I thought. There truly is so much beauty all around....