Pain

Its interesting just when you think that pain has left you it can surprisingly come back in full force. Our beloved dog AJ passed away this summer unexpectedly and it was a hurt that could not be consoled. There has been this void lingering around our family but we have tried to make the best of it. We have moved on, one day at a time, but miss him terribly. Tonight I decided to print out a sketch my brother Sean has been working on in memory of Aj. I knew I was taking a risk of reopening a deep wound, which is why I explained to Sean that we needed this special tribute sooner rather than later. Unfortunately, seeing the drawing started a domino effect of tears and heartache for their sweet friend and companion. It started with Noah who could barely speak while crying struggling to tell us how he feels. After many hugs, snuggles and kisses we still heard them crying in their rooms. Aidan said while sobbing, "why did he have to go" and "I don't want a trampoline for Christmas or a new puppy just bring Aj back!" Jordan walked quietly to his room holding Aj's picture. You can see in his eyes that he has been longing for his best friend. We've had many heart to heart talks with the kids and it saddens us deeply to see them hurting and in so much pain. I have mentioned to my Dad about allowing us to get a new puppy for the boys... ( which normally would not be his decision at all but since we are currently living in his home we need to get his approval.)... and he is not keen on the idea at all. I respect and understand his decision. So we need a Christmas miracle either to have Heavenly Father help heal our broken hearts or somehow help us get a new puppy that would fill the void and bring renewed joy into our hearts. I really don't think my Dad is going to budge on us getting a new dog so I am praying that we find a new home soon in order to get the dog my boys need. Love is all around in many forms but there is something very special about the bond experienced between boys and their beloved dogs.